Friday, April 29, 2011

A night to set me straight

So once again its been ages since I have blogged.  I am starting to be a blog bum, it feel like.  But I have had alot going on with family and health and just haven't been able to find the time. So I would like to say sorry again for being so sporadic for all my blogging friends.

Now on to my post!

Last night a had a much needed girls night out.  I don't get to many of these any more with 3 kids and well living in a small town not really knowing anyone doesn't help either.  I know it was a Thursday night but I let lose and had a blast.  My dear friend Racheal over at "The Trial and Tribulations of Racheal Santo" was back home for a visit and lets just say when she told me she was coming down I was so bloody excited to see her I didn't care what day of the week it was going to be, I was heading up to the city to meet up with her and catch up on some good times.  Mrs. Santo was the lady that got me into the thought of really losing weight and getting healthy.  She did it herself and done such an amazing job and she looks HOT now, not that she wasn't good looking before!  This gal is my rock, my motivator, my coach, and most of all a great friend that you can lean on for anything.

With having this girls night with her and my besty (best friend), I realized (or should I say re-realized for about the 100th time now) that I really need to do this.  I need to loss the weight and stay healthy, but most of all to become happy again.  I love these girls to death and had a blast, and I know they will always love me not matter what.  But with being the biggest girl there and talking alot about health, exercise, eating right, and everything else under the sun, I felt a little uncomfortable, to say the least.  How can I talk about health and think I know what I am doing when none the least I am sitting at 220 some odd pounds and can't seem to stay on track.  I totally know they weren't doing this to make me uncomfortable at all, and I don't feel one should change the subject of conversation just because of how I feel about it.  So this all in a nut shell, really made me think on the drive home that I have to do this.  I don't want to be the fat girl any longer at the table and feel so uncomfortable around such good friends of mine any longer. 

To tell you all the truth, because that's why I have this blog in the first place.  Its to make my self accountable for my many, many actions I take on this journey.  I feel like I let Racheal down, I don't know if she was expecting to come visit me and me be a skinny mini at all, and I am almost 100% sure she will give me shit for writing this!  But Racheal has been my rock like I mentioned above and has talked me through so much and helped me so much the last few months with learning about myself, fitness and health.  And now that I was able to talk to her again in person for the first time in months, I feel like all this time she has put into me has been a waste for her.  I know I thank her for every little bit of info she gives me, but why can't I keep up with it all and succeed?  This might not make sense to many of you and I know some of you will even think that I am trying to do this for someone other then me, myself.  But that's not true, I just feel like I am wasting some else's valuable time when they give me all this amazing information and I still fail. 

So now that I am starting to recover from last night, I am going to sit down once again and redo what I have done so many times already.  I am going to figure out a solution that can work for me and my life style and busy days.  I am keeping my fingers crossed that maybe this time I can really do it and stick to it, and next time I have the chance to see this pretty lady again, I can show her that all of her hard work she has put into me, is paying off.

Not only did I get a much needed time out from the family to let loose a little but I also got that kick in the butt I needed to keep going on this journey and one day (hopefully sooner then later) I will succeed.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Tips for Keeping Your Workout Schedule

I came across this e-mail in my inbox a few weeks ago, all though I was in my slump and off my healthy wagon at that time and never did post it right away.  Now that I am getting back into the grove of things AGAIN, I have take some of these tips and used them in my exercise portion of my journey.  I thought it might be a great article to pass along to all you guys too.  Many of blogger friends, might already have read this if they follow the new Weight Watchers Program, and if so I am sorry for bothering you again with it.  just remember if we can figure out helpful tips and tricks to keep our already busy life's in order with our weight loss journey, its only going to help us all that more!

10 Tips for Keeping Your Workout Schedule
  • Article By: Sally Bevan
Excuse-proof your workout by getting organised and scheduling in fitness.
Isn't it funny that the moment you decide to exercise, something always gets in the way? Mom stops by. The kids need help with their homework. The dog ate your running shoes. Maybe it's time to organise your exercise?

Make life easy for yourself.
Plan a regimen that fits with your lifestyle. If you work irregular hours, for example, don't sign up for classes that start at the same time each week. Instead, choose activities that can be easily slotted into your day: Walk the kids to school or run errands on foot during your lunch hour.

Draw up a weekly timetable.
To help you organise your time properly, draw up a weekly timetable of planned exercises and activities. This will also help you see how much activity you're getting. Try to do something for at least 20 minutes each day, even if it's just yard work or going on a brisk walk around the neighbourhood.

Attach exercise to a treat.
Give yourself a reward for scheduling in fitness. Buy flowers once a week for completing all of the workouts you scheduled. You can also attach exercise to an enjoyable event, such as playing with your kids in the park or catching up with a friend on a walk.

Get everyone else on board.
Make sure your family and friends know when and where you plan to exercise. This way you shouldn't get any unwelcome interruptions. If you need someone to watch the kids while you exercise, make sure you arrange this well in advance; don't rely on last-minute favours.

Anticipate motivational dips.
Everyone struggles with motivation from time to time, preparing for these feelings can go a long way to combating them. For instance, if you sometimes struggle to go to your aerobics class, get a friend to call you to make sure you're not still sitting on the sofa.

Avoid danger zones.
Many things can distract even the most hardened of exercisers: your favourite TV show, the lure of a night on the town with friends, or a neighbour popping in for an impromptu chat. Learn to recognise your particular "danger zones" and take steps to negotiate your way around them.

Buy figure-flattering workout clothing.
You don't want to look like a sack of potatoes when you're exercising. Spend money on well-designed, flattering and supportive gym clothes; you'll be more motivated to work out.

Have a specially designated drawer for fitness fare.
When you're in hurry, the last thing you want is to be hunting around for your gym socks. Keep all your exercise clothes in a special drawer so you can find them quickly.

Leave your gym bag by the door.
Always leave your gym bag by the door. This serves two purposes: one, so you always know where it is; and two, it serves as a gentle reminder that an exercise session might be due.

Put your gym clothes straight into the wash.
And last but not least, when you get back from the gym or pool, put your dirty clothes straight in the washer. Nothing is guaranteed to put you off exercising more than having to rummage around in the laundry basket for a semi-clean pair of gym socks!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Pain Killers and me don't get along!

OK my dear friends and followers...... No I have not abandon ship again, I know its been more then a week since my last blog but I have a reason other then hiding from the fact I feel off the wagon for the trillionth time.  Last Thursday night I hurt my back really bad.  My husband ended up taking me the the hospital a few towns over from us the next morning (Friday) because I wasn't able to move at all.  Its funny how the simplest things can hurt you.  All I was doing was bending over to pick up a towel and felt a "pop" in my lower back and I had instant pain and little to no mobility to walk, sit, or lay down.  It took me 10 minutes to walk from the bathroom to my nearest couch in the living, which is no more the 15 feet apart.  I don't think I slept at all that night.  So once getting to the hospital they gave my some Demerol and muscle relaxers.  Well lets just say neither of those worked and I was still in server pain.  The doctor didn't like the way things were going so he admitted me into the hospital and there I stayed all weekend.  Lets just remind you all if you don't know. I don't NOT like hospitals at all, I hate being away from my family and not always fond of nurses.  Well this stay wasn't as bad a being in a big city hospital because there was a whopping 3 of us that were in the hospital so I got the attention needed.  So on goes the fun all weekend of trying about 300 different pain killers, anti inflammatory and muscle relaxers (OK it wasn't that many but they tried alot till something finally worked!)  Finally late Sunday they let me out, even thought I was still in quite a bit of pain, it was better then Friday morning when I first got there.  Now for the rest of the week it has been improving and starting to get back to normal for the most part.  But I there hasn't been a day that I haven't been to some sort of doctor to get my back looked at or get this or that test done.  No one has figured out what I did to it yet, but the good news is that I haven't done any damage to the nerves or muscles.  So its one step closer to finding out kinda I guess.

So I have been told no vigorous exercise for a while and nothing to do with bending.   So out goes exercising for me.  Boohoo, I was looking forward to getting back into my Zumba class and boxing again, but I guess it is better to heal first and get better then it is to damage my back even more.  I have been OK with eating, making  healthier choice again and watching how much I eat at one time.  So that is a step forward on my weight loss journey again.  All though with that being said, the medication they have me on for pain is making me feel like a whale.  Man I am bloated and flying high for a good part of the day.  I am scared to step on the scale to see what I am at right now, because I am sure I will be up due to the meds but I also know that when I see that I am up I will be really upset about it.  So I am going to stay off the scale for a while.  But keep up with eating healthy and walking as much as a can.

So that is my last week in a nut shell.  I haven't lost my wagon but I have been set to the very edge of it for a while.  I will keep trekking on thought.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

What I have I done????

OK my fellow readers.  If you are still with me I am surprised I haven't been all to good the last few weeks.  Not just with blogging, but with my whole life in general!  I hope all of you haven't been as stupid as me and let yourselves go.  All I have to say is that it was the wrong thing for me to do and I wish I had never done it. 

Life has kicked me in the ass, stomach, head, hell every part of me.  It seemed like every time I turned around, answered the phone, or read my messages it was shitty bad ass news.  And well lets see here, someone who is an emotional eater to start with and under a lot of stress, disappointment, and confusion.  I just gave up.  Gave up on eating healthy, on exercising, on looking towards the future and living the present.  There were days I am surprised I made it out of bed.  I guess if I didn't have my children to look after I would have stayed there.

Now that I have got that in the open, its time to start again (for about the millionth time).  I don't want to be fat any longer, I don't want to be out of breath when I play a simple game of hide and go seek with my kids, I don't want to be unhappy.  I want to be healthy, fit, slim, and happy and I am truly hoping one day I can be that.  I know this isn't a snap of the fingers and you are skinny but I just wish I can get it through this thick skull of mine that I need to work hard at it and all the time not just every now and then.

So I am going to try this battle once again and I am hoping that you will all stay with me.  With Spring coming time seems to be short often with so much going on, but I am hoping to keep you all posted and to get back to reading everyone else's blogs again. 

I wish you all the best and proud of every one of you that has made it this far its a tough road to go down!