Mother Nature... take a hike!

If you can't afford a doctor, go to an airport - you'll get a free x-ray and a pat down, and if you mention Al Queda, you get a free colonoscopy!. 

I received this as an e-mail last week and thought it was kinda cute!

I have noticed that I haven't blogged in a few days.  Wow, life has just been busy, busy, busy here.  With the children being off of school last week I had a house full for Ducky's Arts and Activity Centre and then on top of all that my 3 children were sick through out the past week too.  Now I think I am coming down with a cold AGAIN!  I can't seem to miss these things the last few years.  Any cold or flu that shows up in the community I seem to get it, since my first pregnancy I catch everything.  Before I got pregnant the first time, I was hardly ever sick now it feels like every other week I am.  Oh well live has to move on when you have family and work to do.

I took the weekend off of exercising and I wish I hadn't, when I went back to my boxing I sure noticed it in my arms.  It took a good 15 minutes for my arms to warm up and not hurt so much, but I pushed through that hurdle and kept going.  At one time I know I would have stopped before the pain did, because I just didn't want to work through it, things sure have changed and for a good way!  I just love this cardio workout, now. 

I got a facebook message yesterday from a lady here in town, she is trying to get a Zumba class together and was wondering who all would like to take it.  I jump on the opportunity, with living in a small town of about 215 people or so, there isn't much to offer for classes.  I would love if we could get enough people together to do this and maybe keep it up with a few sessions through out the year.  So I am keeping my fingers crossed all goes well and come April I can get these two left feet of mine moving even more!

As for my weigh in this past Sunday........... lets just say I was more then a little pissed off with it!  I worked out every day except the Saturday and ate pretty darn well and I was still up 1.6 pounds.  Now, I think I might know why, but still it makes me mad.  I have had mother nature visiting me for well over 2 weeks now....... and with her here she has brought havik on my body! The horrible cramping and bloating like you wouldn't believe.  Once again I go back to when I had my children.  After each child my periods got worse and worse, before my first I never had cramps, bloating, cravings, anything.  And then comes baby number one, I thought they were bad then.......hell now baby number 3 is here and they are 3 times worse!  Why is it that us  women have to go through all this crap????????  Once you are done having children, I think you should be done with your period to!

Any who, now that I kinda caught ya all up on my past week or so.  I hope you all have been doing better then I have and keep up with your hard work!

Weigh in and a little more

So this morning was weigh in........ the results didn't change from yesterday :(  But I am not going to sulk over what the scale is telling me this week.  I see it and I am going to move on  no pity party this time.  It's a gain like I said in last nights post Wine and Dine  but just cause I am up does not mean that I am not on track.  Our bodies can do some funny things to us, I know personally this time, I didn't cheat, I exercised, and I was getting more water in (not enough yet, but its finally coming to me). 

This week I will continue eating healthy.  I still have a bad habit of skipping meals, I have done this for a good 15 years now, its not going to change over night, not when I have been doing the same thing over and over again for that long.  But it is coming, just like my water intake (that will be another post to come!). 

I am loving my Wii exercises but I was thinking last night, I can't just rely on the wii, sure it gets me moving and its fun at the same time, but I need to get in my mind that I have to do more then that.  This week I would like to get back into my resistance band workout and maybe some exercises on the ball.  I am not to sure what those exercise balls are really called, but I got one from my mommy last week, and well I haven't used it yet.  I am going to this week.  No, its not going sit in my basement and collect dust or be another toy for the kids to play with.  I am going to use it. 

I have a dear dear friend that keeps my spirits up when needed, gives my motivation to keep going (hell she was the one that was able to get me started) and some amazing tips on every aspect of weight loss, exercises, and nutrition.  She has told me a few times now, that I really should get a "starting" picture and keep taking some along the way, it will keep one motivated to see the changes.  She also said that I should take my measurements, not that it has to be every week but once or twice a month even. This way, if you have a bad number on the scale one week you can see that you might not have lost weight, but you might have lost inches along the way. I had thought of this before, but my problem was having to get them done in the first place.  So last night I finally broke down and asked the hubby for help doing these tasks that I was dreading.  Wow, scary numbers(see below of stats).....  I have never liked my photo being taken, because lets face it, I knew I was fat, so why did I want to see myself in a photo.  Why should anyone else have that memory of looking back at pictures and seeing this massive person in a picture.  But I am hoping with enough work one day maybe I wont mind having that picture taken with the kids or the husband.

So here are my scary stats, I don't mind it you all gasp for a breath after you read each number.  I did when the hubby told me what they were.  Hell I am pretty sure he picked me off the floor with a few of them.

Feb 2011

Arms ~ 15 1/8 inches
Chest ~ 43 3/4 inches (that's under the boobs, but I don't have anything there to worry about so I could probably measure them and have damn near the same number!)
Waist ~ 49 inches  (GASP)!!!! Yeppers that's where he picked me up off the floor
Hips ~ 46 3/4 inches
Thighs ~ 26 inches   (another, holy f@#$ from me with this number)

Weight ~ 224.6 pounds
This week ~ up 1.8
1st goal ~ 220.5 pounds
Starting ~ 245 pounds

I made it another week

So its Monday morning and I just weighted in.  My normal weigh in day is usually Sundays, but I forgot to do it yesterday morning because I was up early trying to finish every thing needed for the birthday/baptism.  And well to get 3 kids, a husband and myself ready is alot of work some days, ecspecaily when you are the ones being the center of attention that day.  I hate being the center of attention any time, besides having to stand up in front of a church full of family, friends, and community members.

Now that I weighed in, I was happy with the out come.  Yes it was a gain but not to bad, after my binge of cheesecake earlier in the week and with a lack of balance the last 3 days.  I was up .8 of a pound. So that puts me back to 226.4.  Along ways to go for goal yes, but I will do it! 

I have set 2 goals this week (so far).
1: to track, track, track that food that is going into my damn mouth.
2: to drink at least half my water intake a day.

I say half my water intake, because I will admit it.  I HATE WATER!  Unless its a hot day (and that aint happening any time soon, when its like -40C out there today with the wind).  So I want to start my self out slow so I know I can do it, and then keep adding more till I reach a comfort level of my water  intake.  I know it show be 8-8oz glasses a day, but what if that's just to much for my?  Should I really beat my self up because I can't get all my water in in a day?

OK so the outcome of my cake.... I know that's what you are really waiting for.  (Screw the rest of my week!)  I decided to take a shorter cut and not make Dora right out of cake.  Yes its was still a cake, but I left the cake in the form of the 9" X 13" pans a cooked it in.  And then used the fondant to make Dora instead.  I feel pretty good with the outcome, for a newbie.  Everyone seemed to have enjoyed it, and were pretty proud of my work.  They still don't know how I find the time to make these cakes and all the other crap I do.  But I think to myself, I am up early almost everyday (5:00 to 6:00am) and if I don't keep myself busy I will crash and if I crash nothing will get done then.  And if I do crash, then comes in the eating of shit food that I don't need, like chips, chocolate.....etc.  You get the bloody point, something that an over weight blob like me doesn't need.

starting weight 245
now 226.4
1st goal 220.5

The kick off

So I decided that enough was enough back on November 4, 2010.  I was tired of being the fat mom with no energy, no clothes that fit, and in one hell for a shit hole of emotions.  As of today, I have lost 19.6 pounds in my journey so far.  This journey is consisting of the Weight Watchers Online program to keep me in order, but also the fact that I am prepared to beat this fat once and for all.

All my life that I can remember I was over weight, as those who like to put it nicely.  In other words yes I have always been fat (I am not going to pussy foot around here!).  I was made fun of through grade school, high school, and even as an adult walking down the street or at the mall.  My all time largest was a topping 245 pounds.  How and why I let myself get this fucking big, I don't know.  Well yes I do know why.... I love food, I hate food, I have problems with food, I have shitty eating habits in numerous ways.  I am planning on tackling each and everyone along the way. 

This blog is going to not only my weight loss journey to a fabulous new me, but I am hoping to post recipes (the ones that I like and that turn out!), everyday mishaps and trails, and the great emotions that come along with a crazy shit full life. Yes this blog will contain some unknown "french" language and like I mentioned above, I ain't going to pussy foot around its all coming out. 

Please feel free to comment or e-mail me, with your stories, news, motivation, or whatever the hell you want to.  I will try to respond to any appropriate messages as soon as I am able to.