Thursday, April 7, 2011
What I have I done????
Life has kicked me in the ass, stomach, head, hell every part of me. It seemed like every time I turned around, answered the phone, or read my messages it was shitty bad ass news. And well lets see here, someone who is an emotional eater to start with and under a lot of stress, disappointment, and confusion. I just gave up. Gave up on eating healthy, on exercising, on looking towards the future and living the present. There were days I am surprised I made it out of bed. I guess if I didn't have my children to look after I would have stayed there.
Now that I have got that in the open, its time to start again (for about the millionth time). I don't want to be fat any longer, I don't want to be out of breath when I play a simple game of hide and go seek with my kids, I don't want to be unhappy. I want to be healthy, fit, slim, and happy and I am truly hoping one day I can be that. I know this isn't a snap of the fingers and you are skinny but I just wish I can get it through this thick skull of mine that I need to work hard at it and all the time not just every now and then.
So I am going to try this battle once again and I am hoping that you will all stay with me. With Spring coming time seems to be short often with so much going on, but I am hoping to keep you all posted and to get back to reading everyone else's blogs again.
I wish you all the best and proud of every one of you that has made it this far its a tough road to go down!