Monday, May 9, 2011
A comfort in an awkward situation
So the next day we head off for lunch and garage sale shopping. I am not one to shop and when I do I really prefer to be by myself to look at things and what not, but there was no way I was turning down this offer to make some kinda friendship out here. I must say I did have a blast getting to know this group of ladies, yet at the same time I felt totally awkward again. Yes, I didn't know half the people these girls were talking about, but on the other larger side I felt the awkwardness because yet again I was the fat one in the group. Here is a table of 4 skinny mini's, whom have all had children with in the last 18 months some as little as 4 months ago. That at their heaviest, soaking wet, would probably weigh the same as one of my thighs. It just really bothers me to be so much heavier then others I know. I can't go shopping with my friends and find those "cute" clothes because lets admit it no "normal" store sells 1,2,3 XL clothing and those skinny friends don't want to go into plus sizes stores with you.
So in the end, I had a blast out with some girls from around town, but at the same time it also made me realize yet again, how much I need to keep myself on track to lose this weight. So I can become comfortable with who I am when I am around others. These two days brought alot of joy into my life yet at the same time, I was totally outta my comfort zone. I guess in order to make new friendships you have to do that, just like exercising, if you don't leave the comfort zone and push your self that much harder you aren't doing much good.