Wednesday, January 26, 2011
That damn Wagon
I have been feeling a little blue the last few days, not to sure why at all. I guess that's what happens with depression. But while I was getting ready this morning I notice something else. My ear had a big scab in it. Now I haven't told many people about this bad habit of mine but like I said in the first blog, that all shit will come out.
When I get stressed I pick at my ears. I don't even notice I am doing it most of the time, until they are sore and bleeding. I am not sure why I do this either, it doesn't help anything that's for sure. Why would scratching my ears till there is no skin left, really help me out in a stressful situation? But like I mentioned I don't even realize I am doing it, and that's what happened yesterday I guess. I don't even know what I am stressed out about this time or right now. Is it family, money, this weight loss journey, food in general? Maybe that's it? Maybe I was doing it because I was eating and I know I wasn't suppose to be?!?! Something for me to think about.
Is there anyone else out there that does stupid things when they get stressed out? Or am I the only freak that does? Really would help if I had better knowledge on why I do it. I guess I might have to turn to my good old friend the net, to see some insight on this horrible habit of mine.
Well today's a new day and hope I can get back onto this wagon and continue going on the correct path. I have noticed I fell off now I need to get back on and stay on!